[5/2/25] i had sex with a male aquaintence of mine. it didnt feel good and even a little painful but i made fake hammed up noises anyways. i was trying to get cummed in but when he finally ejaculated, it all fell out of my body in a weird thick slime. it made me feel disgusting XD
[6/2/25] i was at my old house, on the door step with my mother and we were looking up at the sky. it was bright blue and sunny outside. we were watching an airplane going straight up into the sky. id never seen one so close to the ground before and could see it shaking from side to side a little. i pointed that out and asked if something was wrong with it but my mother didnt seem to care. it exploded and i saw everyone inside fall out. we had to hide out under the small gap by the door to avoid getting hit by the passengers falling out of the sky. i tried to go inside but the door was locked mysteriously. i went to school later that day and asked if anyone elses doors locked mysteriously during that time of the day. i assumed it was end of times. it felt like it anyways. i hung out for a while in a strange room off the side of the history corridor. it was full of dolls and had 2 beds with human sized dolls laying underneath. i also seemed to be in an art club. it was in a big glass room and everyone there seemed to be painting nice patterns on the windows. i stood around looking at the airplanes outside and waited to see if one would explode again.
[11/2/25] i was about to get the shit beaten out of my by my dad. just as he was gonna hit me again i yelped irl and woke myself up. everytime i got hurt in my dream i felt painful and uncomfortable irl.
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[26/2/25] i had a dream i was in a weird burrow cave like home and for some reason about to be haunted by the clown from it. the thought of it aroused me though and i planned on having sex with him instead of being scared. so i went seeking him out and went deeper into the house thing. it all seemed like a series of homes connected by doors in other peoples rooms that went deeper and deeper. most of the rooms were empty and i could go through to the others with no problem but i barged in on a nervous looking lady. she was nice enough and let me carry on climbing into her wardrobe to get into another room. a scary looking man came down the stairs and grabbed her around the neck with a knife and dragged her off upstairs though. i seemed to have some kind of raport with this man already and i just gave the lady a sad look. im sorry! im not sure how this part came about but i was having {yaoi} anal sex with another man. i was faced away from him and looking down at like hentai i think on a phone LOL i kept telling him what to do and how to move in a way that he could never understand what i meant. was also making crazy sounds too i remember i screamed at some point. i asked him to do it again a good few times after. cool. i got into the last room i think it was. there was a big boulder with images coming out or projected on it. it showed a clip of the earth blowing up and a man stood in the corner of the room said it meant thats how the world was gonna end. after this situation i was put into a hall with a bunch of people running around, flailing beeing hysterical. they were covered in stuff. coulf have been blood i dont even know. it was like being in a tv show. i was even put into a flashback of a japanese man looking for his sister [side story; found his sister in her underwear at a rock show. when she sees us she runs away, get into a chase sequence and have to kick a man off his motorbike until he dies] back in the hall, there was a picture of the earth being projected on the wall again. i was sat looking at it then a group of nude ladies crawled over to me and stuck their fingers between my legs. they were trying to get blood out of me and saying weird things i cant remember. i dont remember getting naked either. there was someone at the side of the room who i never looked at, who said that all the strange hysteric people represented the apple from the garden of eden. i was like well of course i knew thaat obviously. i managed to get outside and when i got out, i went to visit a kind of chavvy woman at her house. i dont get why. there was alot of people there blahhblah i walked along a nice pathway to go to school? or home. its not as interesting sounding now ive written it out.
[11/3/25] i was in my old houses bedroom and was being really paranoid and worried about something coming into my room. i had one of those wooden school doors with the window in the middle so i could see the stairs from my bed. i kept checking over to see if anything was coming up. i went and bitched about being scared online but then....! shadow milk cookie came into my room and circled around my bed in slow motion. when i tried to leave he lunged at me across my bed and raped me LOL. despite getting raped by a cookie run character on my bedroom floor i guess i was a little bit more worried about a spider walking near me since there was a spiders nest liiving in that old room. when i woke up i liked shadow milk 80% and bought merchandising of him.
[22/3/25] another mika dream. he was sleeping in a dark red room that just looked like a scary void. while he sleeps his dad stands at the side of his bed. he looks like a huge shadow. when mika wakes up he grabs his hand and presses it to his crotch. mika doesnt enjoy this and seems very frightened. his dad put his hand down under the blanket, presumably grabbing his penis and then forcibly spreading his legs apart. mika is unhappy with this. later on mika is in his room and finds it unpleasant and uncomfotable and keeps going to sleep in his dads room.
sometime between last update and now..
i dreamt i was a cute anime boy running around town with 2 other colorful anime boys. i didnt see what we were up to til this point but i assumed [somewhat implied]by nothing]] it was sexual and that we were just going around doing dirty things. we run into a british style home estate with those moderns council houses with the yellow bricks. I was feeling pretty upbeat until we walk by this one house. Everything seems to get more saturated and orangeish after this. My friends suggest we see if the guy that lives there wants to play too but i feel horrible all of a sudden. I tell them we should leave him alone and we move on. I think for a bit;;;;;;;;i feel horrible and guilty. i could barely even look at the window of his house. Prior to whatever had happened i really wanted to see this character more than anything. i would have loved to see him and the inside of his house[forsomereason] but it made me sick this time. i pretended i was feeling okay and kept playing around with my friends. Later he actually came out and seemed excited to see us. He had his hair down{i thought this in the dream im not entirely sure what he looked like with his hair up} he seemed a little concerned that i didnt look happy to see him. Then one thing led to another& we all had sex with a blonde lady.
Im on a trip somewhere on a roofless train thing with my mother i assume and other assorted family members. Im watching the scenery going by and i notice a big resort accomodation looking place. Its totally empty and its a mess inside and outside. Theres trash all over the grass and furniture is tipped over, like everyone left in a panic. Theres aggressive grey and black ostriches are all over the grass by the front gate. I was really enamoured by it and tried showing my mom. i couldnt stop thinking about it!
I was in high school again and it seemed like it was a special day and no one was doing any real work, like around christmas time when school work doesnt seem to matter. i was sat in a dark classroom messing around and arguing with someone. Its fun and stuff. Some kids start laughing at the back of the classroom and it keeps getting louder and louder until it reaches the front of the classroom. Then a video started playing from the projector......! it was a porno of me. I recognised it immediately and started to cry and scream. I ran out of the classroom whilst everyone laughs at me. I didnt want to go home and i didnt know what to so just ended up wandering around the school, waiting for break to happen so everyone could make fun of me. Nobody outside the classroom looked at me funny or harassed me so it hadnt spread just yet. i decide to try go outside but an old school mate approached me and gave me mysterious peice of advice and warning as if he knew what had happened. Like you did this to yourself but you can turn it around or aomething along those lines. It mmade me mad. i was thinking 'what would you know?'. then break started, but everyone just came out and stood around the school for some special school event. No one laughs and i feel underwhelmed like is that it?
I met with an online friend. we stayed in a sad looking motel room together and at night we attended a strange school. Theres a bunch of other people playing outside in the courtyard. The school looked run down and scary but on the inside it looked like a normal school except with more bright white rooms. Some things i cant truly remember happened inside. something along the lines of getting into trouble with a scary demonic thing. At this point were running away from something and know that somethings up. I happen upon a door with a weird orange light shining through the cracks and know it probably leads somewhere important but i never had the chance to explore it. We get outside and notice some holes in the ground. We try looking through them but it was too dark to see but when we pressed our ears down to listen, there was a scraping noise. I went into the hole and it looked like a very very dark alleyways with strange looking people dragging something weird attached to a rope around their waists. hah
[21/6/25] Was in this weird school place. Im aimlessly walking up some stairs and a fat guy walks down in the exact direction im at so i move out of the way for him. But he moves back in the way and gets super mad at me. He pulls out a pink sword and is like "dont make me use my legendary wakizashi....|" he tries to stab me anyways so i run away from me. I guess i did get stabbed and i was wandering the school bleeding with a stab hole in my side. I go into a fancy lunch room with nice red curtains on all the windows. Its pitch black outside. The table in the left corner has a rose in a vase and someones sat waiting for me i assume. Kuga from juujika no rokunin is there too with his girlfriend. I came to the table but ignored everyone to look out of the window. There was a barely visible structure on fire across some water[?] i thought it was interesting.
[22/6/25] Me and a friend were hanging around some outdoors holiday place with my family. For some reason we decide to run away from them. We run into a huge massive sprawling caravan park and break into an empty one to live in. Its dark and empty inside and appears to be evening outside. My friend decides theyre going to sneak out and try and find some supplies or something {?} whilst im alone, a pack of dogs come to the door and start trying to get inside because they know we have food in there. It pissed me off so much. I looked out from the window and saw them all begging outside the door. I really wanted them to leave. Anyhow a security guy comes over and i have to escape real quick. I squeezed through one of those tiny windows and ran away. Me and my friend find each other again and try find somewhere else to stay in the lot. We walk to the very back a find some reallly super tiny small plastic looking shacks. Inside is scary dark and there were a handful of deformed people inside. They were very nice to us.
[24/6/25] I was a pretty effeminate anime boy and i was living at a weird facility place. Im not sure what the facility was for or about but the last time i was there i was sitting in a mostly empty lit cinema/lecture room. For some reason or another i decide to go home [my old house though]. The area around is really quiet besides a group of teenagers getting off the bus. When i got home, theres another family living there with mine and their kids were sleeping in my old room. The house looks bad like the wallpaper has been peeled off and everywhere seems grimy annd theres less furniture. Theres no room for me there anymore since theres too many people in the house. I didnt like that the womans kids had to share a room and i was seemingly really worried about cocsa taking place and brought it up to my father of all people. I wanted to speak with him in secret and so we did in the back yard. I didnt like the woman who was living with them and i complained about her and cartoonishly she appeared at the bottom of the garden eavesdropping. She was mad at me but i was mad that she was listening in on me so i yelled at her which escalated to her arguing with my mother. I stood in the front of the house and played with the hose for a bit while they argued. The woman left and i sprayed her a little. I was a upset so i decided i didnt wanna stay here but i didnt know where to go. I knew i could go back to the facility but i was hesitant and considered sleeping on the streets for the night but reluctantly ended up going back to the facility.
[25/6/25] i was trapped in an dark grey endless bathroom. i was really dizzy and just mindlessly running around. Certain stalls would open up into another bathroom but from time to time a colorful anime girl would appear and try to kill me, but we would always end up having sex. I think i passed out and when i woke up i was being fucked by some people and a weird device i felt was reaching a part of me that it shouldnt be. it felt too good and i was close so i didnt care but then i started thinking about whatever and then the arousal stopped so i just left. Amazing story the end
[30/6/25] I was in the dark world with noelle holiday and some old classmates. My classmates and i were laying on a bed, in the corner of a light blue bedroom with a pink carpet. There was someone talking from behind the bedroom door and noelle was stood besides it. I got up to try hold the door shut in case who ever it was tried to get it. Noelle helped me./ There was a weird energy seeping in that kept changing coloirs but always remained dark. At some point i sstopped trying to keep the door closed and even tried to open the door. I cant remember what he said but i knew he walked away.
[24/3/26] {this one is boring} I was in a big ultra cramped complex for entertainment as entertainment. I was Hajime Shino and we were performing and for some reason i really didnt want to but in the end i came out and we performed love it love it. My family were in the crowd as a matter of fact it looked more like a pub crowd rather than a idol fan crowd. My shorts kept falling down and i kept doing the wrong dance moves but after the show lots of people were commending me and saying how cool i was. What fun. I got swept away by the huge crowd of people and ended up walking into a club. I felt immediately out of place but went and sat down. I felt as if i shouldnt have been there so i tried to fit in and not look like a stupid boy in a sailor outfit in the club. I complimented a womans hair and a man who revealed himself to be biggie smalls told me she was part of his entourage and that i shouldnt speak to her and instead speak to him. He invited me over to speak with him and i assumed thats because i was also famous...i kept forgetting who i was. I went to sit next to him but ended up somewhere completely different. Still in the complex but now in a really dirty looking pet shop. It looked more like a science room than a pet shop. Everything was tinted brown and covered in something unclean. The fish and insects were being kept in dirty tupperwere boxes or just seemingly dead. It was crammed in there too and everyone was walking in a rotation as if they were viewing things in a museum rather than pet shop. I had a bit of money and decided i should buy something.I was going to buy a hissing cockroach. I had to wait for the shop clerk to finish faffing around with a dead dried up angler fish to get her attention and ask about the cockroach. She said ' you cant have those as pets' and laughed but i knew i could and it irritated me a little. i told her that and she just said thats not true. I ended up somewhere else within the complex looking for dirty anime figurines. Someone told me they were selling some but it seemed like everyone was just about packing up and leaving. I go managed to find a figurine of Hide for £9.80 and tell the clerk i wanted to buy it but she said it was too big to pull out of the shelf. and i thought 'well you could just turn it side ways you dumb bitch' and walked out dejected and sad. I walked my way around and there was loud music playing. I ended up in some residential area. It was like a common area balcony thing. There was a shakey table like lift platform in the middle. An older lady came out with all her kittens and they were running around but one almost falls off the side whilst trying to jump onto the lift thing. I was sure it was going to fall and die but it somehow got caught. The lady takes her kittens and goes back inside and no one seems to really have cared. Some point later i meet with my dad for some reason. We are in a field similar to the one by my grandmas house but theres a river there today. Under a big bridge that doesnt exist irl. We lay under it and in the river and i tell him about films id seen recently or music id heard and we watch 3 of them on a projector. When theyre over i say bye and get up to leave. I was really mad at myself for getting along with him and not being rude or aggressive.
[31/3/26] i was a blonde anime boy in what seemed like a really emoty post apocalyptic world. It was reminiscent of land of the lustrous. I was with two other anime boys..they appeared to be slightly older than me and acted somewhat like kind older brothers. We came to live and take shelter in this big empty marble building by the water. I didnt know what was happening too much but i was aware that it was dangerous times and the outside was volatile. I saw some plant people die[head explode and fall off] on the way to the marble building so i had it on good authority that life wasnt safe anymore. it was nighttime and we had all conjugated to the side of the building [which was open] to stare out to sea. Jesus appeared to us and he had a message. But i couldnt hear it. i was so overwhelmed with sadness and emotion and just cried. The other two reached out to him and called out to him saying things i couldnt hear or remember. i reached out too whilst crying and was saying things like 'i love you..! i love you! dont goooooo dont leave meeee'. he touched my hand and said he had to leave and the other two bid him farewell and he walked back into the sea. They were satisfied and happy to have been visited by Jesus and left to walk around the side of the house but i still felt a horrible sadness. i wanted to be granted salvation or love or something so i kept crying. i looked out to sea and saw him again, standing on the water next to a buoy[ithink] he waved to me one last time and disapesred for good. I kept waving even long after he was gone. At some point we were back in the big room again and i was laying curled up in one of their laps. i was scared and i wanted comfort so i could go to sleep. They were petting me and it felt nice. Another anime boy walked in however and i didnt recognise him. He had brunette hair up in a ponytail with some white hair clips. I got really angry and was like 'who is this??' and one of the other guys told me he was the SURVEYOR. and it really pissed me off. I didnt recognise him but they seemed to know full well who he was. i didnt think there were other human beings around either. It all came down to me acting out rather childishly..i dont know what i did but im aware i did something that got me in trouble with the other characters. one of them was really hesitant to punish me but he looked and sounded really disapointed in me. The rest of this portion of my dream i was being ignored and on punishment. Somewhere in another time i was with a friend..and we were planning to do something nefarious. We had eyepatches and felt hard done by and were acting out coz of it. We were planning to kill an animal as part of the BIGGER plan for a man. A lesser discussed part of the plan for whatever we were planning was injecting something into our gums. My friend injected and ton and it hurt and my mouth swelled up. I was acting really pathetic about it too.
[29/4/26] a fat chavvy girl came to my house with a sword and tried to murder my cat and so i stabbed her as much as possible but it didnt seem to be doing much. i cant tell who it belonged to but there was one of those super sharp knives there and i had cut the back of my neck open with it somehow but she took credit for it since it was bleeding lots. It really annoyed me. I kept stabbing her and for some reason and as soon as another person i dont know walked in, she sliced her own neck open. It was full of yellow fat and it really repulsed me. Not because she was fat but because her neck was abnormally large and full of that yellow stuff and bleedings. I ran away with my cat i think. im not truly sure if he was alive or killed but it felt like i was carrying something when i ran away. I ran out of the backdoor and through the neighbours garden in the dark. I was sure to put on a sad and scared expression in case i was caught by one of them whilsy trespassing on in the gardens. For sympathy. I ended up in front of a gate next to a street light anf recieved a call that rold me they knew what i did and i needed to meet them somewhere. I was frightened at first but then i realised i didnt really do anything wrong 9in my eyes at least9 and that i didnt have to meet them if i didnt want. hah. at another point i had entered a really empty sickly feeling apartment complex running and hiding from something i cant remember. I think i had someones mail and stopped to give it to him and entered his apartment for some readson too. He fell asleep on his couch immediatly and i found 2 kittens on the stove being burned and hurt. I put them in the sink and washed them with cold water and kept telling the guy his cats were burned but he was still sleeping. One was a little ginger thing with two big metallic looking holes burned into it. Everytime id look away one cat would be drowning in the water. I managed to save them though. I put them in a plastic bowl and left them on the side before going on my merry way. I then enjoyed a short dream about the pipe man who was a pale anime boy in ripped underwear that lived under the floors crammed up against the pipes just crawling on them all day. He could crawl up the toilet and just barely peek or reach from the little hole or if that was too small you could hear him or talk to him through it.
[30/4/26] Another Mika based dream. He was caught having incest with his father but only recieved a stern talking to and put on slight punishment by unknown 3rd party. I found a picture on my [his] phone of them kissing and took a picture of it on another phone. I was scrambling around on my phone trying to hide something..i assume was more proof of incest. Another incest dream occured. I was in a strange new confusing layout building in town. There was some kind of party or situation going on and most everyone there besides me was likke 30 something. A man who was supposedly crazy took interest in me despite having a wife. We spoke breifly about something i dont remember and he carried me somewhere but my father intervened. I was upset since i thought i was going to have sex. I went into the dirty bathroom and every stall was filled with something nasty. The walls were bright yellow and the doors were red and sometimes dark blue. I was hiding but i dont know why. The crazy man found me again and he took me downstairs into a dark room with one chair and tv to have intercourse. The man then turned into a relative however. I was aroused before but i became apathetic but still going along once it turned familial i suppose despite the circumstances. I had to suck their penis and it kept going flaccid because they kept pausing. They turned the tv on at some point and i thought it was stupid because it might have gotten us caught or obscured the sound of a person coming downstairs. Later on i was kidnapped by a very meek and anxious man from my old school. I was really suprised nobody caught him right away since we walked together through the court yard in full view of the windows of most of the building. he took me to a really messy looking room with lots of wood panelling. He was really regretful right away and wanted to return me but that disapointed me. I asked him to have sex with me but he just put me to bed insead. There was a pink blanket for me on the floor. he didnt want to sleep next to me either he went into the corner and slept next to a doll house and looked at a photo album of his family. He missed his mom or something.